~ White Rabbit ~
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You feel guilty for different reasons and you should feel guilty
Could you expand on your high iq sentence?
I have zero guilt lol stop projecting
It was higher iq than yours ■■■■■■ it isn't a measure of word count
Numeta really should kill himself
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My statement was complete. Your post was the lowest IQ response possible.
Low IQ and a future broken jaw. SAD!
Freedom of speech baby!!
Everyone should kill them selves!
I'm a 17-year-old dude and have never talked to a girl. Im extremely introverted and can't put my mind to stuff I don't like.
I used to stay up late watching youtube videos and anime till deep in the night. I'd still have enough energy to function at school, but break down once I got home. Now I can't fall asleep without passing out while watching something.
I don't eat properly, and haven't my entire life, yet I'm blessed by only being slightly underweighted. I quit sports and traded it for gaming a long time ago. I lost a decently healthy psysique, and people often look down upon people who prefer gaming.
People expect me to know stuff about computers and tech, while I really don't.
I want them to know the real me, see my potential and invest in me. Thats when I can also open up to them and feel comfortable. I have 3 friends who I talk to reguraly, but that's mostly online. This friendship feels like it is fragile and might slowly be withering away. As their lifes are changing, I'm kind off stuck, left behind.
I keep a ton to myself. I never talk about what kind of music I listen to, the shows I watch, my hobbies or my interests. I don't like to put myself in a zone of judgement like that. It feels as if it can only end negatively.
I feel like I'm miserable, but still manage. I find joy in small things and changes. I started playing Pokemon Go again, which helps me get out. I'm slowly but surely writing a story, which helps me dispose of inner thoughts and feelings. I even got a job. I talk to people there as I'm forced to. It stresses me out, but also gives a fullfiling feeling. My colleagues are unbelievably nice and helped me settle great.
I have lots of regrets. Too many things I should've done, or didn't have to do. At the same time, I'm incredibly scared of the future. I need to study, get a degree, a job, a house and above all, I need to be alive for 60 more years. It's scary to think about what will happen and change, for better or worse. When I even look back 10 years, I think about what 7 year old me would've wanted to be by now. I've dissapointed myself.
I don't really have any goals or dreams. I don't have things to work for and thus don't quite accomplish things to be proud of. Everyday I wake up, looking for a spark. A spark that ignites me to really work towards something. When I'm contemplating everything in the shower, I think about going for daily runs and eat healthier. But I just never get to it. I just go back to the things I'm comfortable with, leaving me mindlessly sitting around at my pc.
This has caused me to lose interest in the things I used to love. I could go a whole day watching stuff like Naruto or One Piece. I loved anime but now even 1 episode feels like a drag. I could grind games for days, but now nothing appeals to me like it used to. I burned out on the things I loved without having anything else. I lost passion, without a replacement. I lost myslef.
Maybe I'm depressed, I don't really know. I might be autistic, according to others. I might battle insomnia, looking at my sleep schedule over the past 5 years. But I'll never admit to these things. I'll never put a label like that onto myself. I won't admit defeat. No matter what has happened to me all these years, I am still here and I'll just have to deal with it. Life is tough. No one ever told me it was supposed to hurt, but it just is like that right now.
There are little moments which are possitive aswell of course. I actually just watched the first episode of Hajime no Ippo, and it feels like I'm going to love it. Working a job earns me quite some money. I'm going to buy a second monitor soon which will make me happy again, looking at my setup. Above all, summer is nearing again. Going on a trip to another country greatly improves my mental health for some time. Last summer, I felt oddly reborn in some way looking back on it.
Above all, there are still people there for me. Whether they're my friends or family. For my friends, altough we might be going different directions now, we've had great times. My family also feels like they're getting to know me better. It might seem weird, but after 17 years they are starting to understand me. Or maybe I'm the one who is only just now starting to understand, whatever.
If youre still reading this, I don't expect you to, but if you are, thanks. Thanks for listening to me, venting about my life and thoughts. In return I'll give you some music recommendations I guess. I really like Asian Kung-Fu Generation and TK Ling Tosite Sigure. You probably know songs like Unravel and Haruka Kanata, but I recommend checking more of them out, since they are just amazing for me. I also have 2 bands who aren't Japanese that have been standing out for me recently: Good Kid and Stereophonics.
Anyway, that's all for now. I might edit this comment to add an experience or anything else, but this feels like enough for now. Thanks.
Feel free to point out any incorrect passages I wrote?
This shit doesn't work any more you're a grown ass man you want to act smart go to school
Feel free to hang from a support beam subhuman white trash forever alone beta male
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Go ahead post a picture of yourself. Lets see what white supremacy looks like
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I find it hilarious u fgts can't refute anything I've said but instead say more dumb shit lol
Welcome back
All antisemitism goes out the window when you claim all Jews are zionists
Bruh the talmud teaches the goyim nonsense lol
Claims about the party running the show and powers that b are fair game but extrapolating is 100% not the move