Like I know u guys don’t like me that’s 70% why I stay here here keeping my ego in check but there’s fulfillment in my social life that wasn’t there before I became an alcoholic…Someone sees me drinking everclear out of the bottle they say what the fuck are you doing son we talk about getting wasted I tell them about when I supermanned down the stairs headfirst arms out for rose at an airbnb the first time I had 3 shots of everclear she thought I was gonna break my neck we all laugh…then before I was just kinda meek&uninterested talking to people who I didn’t care about…I’m back like that now since I’m sober but I know it’s sadboi way… Probably why I did the coke I missed feeling like that idk