I don’t think your interaction with streams, streamers, camgirls right now is healthy.
And i think you’re fixating on a girl that doesn’t want that attention (in a creepy way) and pretending to respect her boundaries while secretly waiting for her to change her mind (internet “nice guy” behavior)
Loki listen to me. You are acting like manic psycho weirdo. Stop fixating on this girl. Make yourself more attractive to girls in general, not this one in particular.