blah blah blah, I find it a little irksome you would be quick to for example recommend therapy to some posters, but take issue with it being suggested to you. Maybe go so far as to say I feel you would see the recommendation as an insult, never seek it out, and think of yourself as above it in a sense.
My personal feelings, are there is no right or wrong answers. Even though the problem is extremely relatable the slow path towards something better is unique to the individual. What works for me may be terrible for others, so on.
It an interesting topic to think about cause I find myself gravitating towards essentially existential optimism. That the ideas of needing a greater purpose or reason for living/have consciousness are ultimately fruitless endeavors. That nothing matters, but thats not a call to apathy or dread. Rather its freedom, your free to assign meaning and purpose to whatever you choose to. That others are free to do the same and that its silly to say caring about xyz is worth shit talking them.
I have no experience with SRNIs, but sounds quite similar to the a common SSRI side effect. And those had me feel like a zombie, living life in a third person perspective like I wasn't really anywhere. So after a laundry list of anxiety, antidepressants, and periods of no drugs, I circled back around to adhd meds, which just... removed my perma headaches and 10-15 year long mild depression, kinda rules.
Point is find what works for you, cause a lot of stuff probably won't. In middle school I just played my therapist in chess and stratego, was a good time.
If i wrote too much in other other chain, we agree on things, I didn't like the implication behind suggesting he doesn't care about things. (from the way I read it) k back to poe love you all.
I was on adderall for a while. It definitely made me better at doing things I didn’t care about.
I never read any DSM, but I’m not convinced that I'm depressed for not having found some sort of individualized coping mechanism or philosophical rationalization to give life more palatability than it has.
I think waiting is fine id rather us both be in a stable position when we get engaged and he is currently focused on college, I am not worried about him going anywhere if he was going to I would have absolutely terrified him off like a year ago at this point