I mean yes you definitely find and try to surround yourself with the 'real ones' but I think u also develop an appreciation that people move in and out of life, everybody is on their own little path and that path might be leading somewhere near or somewhere far away
yea you're right you probably just have a higher bandwidth than me
No idea what that means but I'm glad u have real friends u can count on and my life would probably be better if I had the same. I definitely have some personality quirk/issue that prevents that from developing (dont let ppl get that close/dont share beyond a certain level about my life/past) but also there's some element of life/misfortune - like many of my close friends are in other parts of the country, of the two roommates I grew very close with one moved back to his home country recently, the other I learned after a year or so had secretly been harboring some jealousy/other personality issue/saw me as competition in the dancing scene and wanted to fuck with my head/relationships.
But this is what I'm talking about when I say this is the lot in life of people who don't "stay in their lane." If I talk to my current boss/mentor about making vast career improvements/changes, even though those are possible and I could make huge improvements, he will advise against it and limit me because that's where he sees the "runway" for me. And similarly in dancing if you become really good really fast/have women who love dancing with you there are some people who will look at that and compare themselves, or consider it illegitimate, or have some other issue idk. IDK what it is but having a strong vision of some unlikely future state and executing on it, making it real despite the challenges really seems to alienate some people/stir up interpersonal problems
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Also reflecting back on the part about my own quirks/shortcomings, actually when I've shared about myself/trusted too much I've mostly regretted it, it comes back to bite me in some way or just becomes inconvenient. People use the things they know to cause trouble and I dont have time/energy for that
it was a compliment about you being more actively engaged in learning and caring about people you see as transient
All people are transient, that is the nature of life itself, and the joy of life is in engaging genuinely despite that fact
Like drifting down the mississippi on a raft and you pass by some things and some things pass you by and you can either choose to dip your toes in or not.
transient in perspective then
Stay safe Matthew J & see you on the other side of this
Make sure to read as many of my posts as possible in order to stay sane
this, and they were probably shit
you guys are actually right we all grow and often in different directions. just wouldn't feel right without at least a couple people who got my 6
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The mental health expert told me to show everybody the texts
Apparently they dont take my phone here
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weird arc for the website if ima be honest thomas can you make a containment thread
your time playing Mafia trained you for this moment