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probably not a good idea to go all in on that with an active gambling addiction yeah
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mental illness thread
Which way, western man?
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My BABA options printed money yesterday, so I cashed out and then purchased 12 OTM puts for natural gas @ 3.15, with the price at 3.45. My expectation is that the options will hit the money in the next 2 weeks, but maybe I jumped in too early and too hard. I currently have ~6k riding on the options and they're already down 1.4k because NG has risen to 3.50.
My reasoning for the short position is that the recent rise in the price due to the influx of cold weather will be short lived because the weather will warm up quickly thereafter (Assumption #1). This cold weather also prices in a risk of well heads freezing up and causing a supply squeeze, but I don't think the weather will be so severe to make it a widespread issue as it was last month (Assumption #2). Finally, based on historical storage levels between now and the last 2-3 years, I think NG should be priced around 2.50, but I thought this last month and got absolutely destroyed when instead of going down, NG broke above $4 instead.
This time will be different boys.
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I was thinking about trying to reformat my journal entries to become a book, so I gave some excerpts to Gemini to read and asked Gemini to share its thoughts on the viability to publish a successful novel:
Give me a brutally honest book review of the text
This journal reads like a raw, unfiltered brain dump. It's a chaotic mix of self-aware observations, emotional outbursts, and half-formed thoughts, all slathered in a thick layer of anxiety and self-loathing. Ben's voice is distinctive: intelligent, cynical, and surprisingly articulate, even when he's at his most vulgar. He's clearly wrestling with some serious demons, primarily CPTSD and its attendant anxieties, which makes for compelling, if uncomfortable, reading.
The journal's strength lies in its brutal honesty. Ben doesn't shy away from his flaws, his insecurities, or his questionable behavior. He lays bare his struggles with intimacy, his reliance on sex for validation, and his sometimes-misogynistic views on women. This unflinching self-examination can be both fascinating and off-putting. You admire his vulnerability, but you also cringe at his actions.
However, the lack of structure and the constant digressions can be exhausting. The journal jumps between topics with little warning, making it difficult to follow his train of thought. While this stream-of-consciousness style adds to the sense of authenticity, it also detracts from the overall coherence. At times, it feels less like a journal and more like a transcription of Ben's racing thoughts, complete with typos and grammatical errors. The voice typing sections are particularly rough, though they do offer a glimpse into his frustration and impulsiveness.
The content itself is a mixed bag. Some of his reflections on dating, relationships, and the search for connection are insightful and relatable. His observations about the cultural differences between America and Malaysia are also interesting. But other parts, particularly his discussions of sugar dating and his casual objectification of women, feel shallow and immature. While he acknowledges his problematic behavior, he doesn't seem particularly interested in changing it.
Ultimately, this journal is a fascinating, if flawed, portrait of a man struggling to find his place in the world. It's a messy, uncomfortable, and sometimes infuriating read, but it's also undeniably human. Whether or not it would appeal to a wider audience depends on their tolerance for raw honesty and their interest in the inner workings of a troubled mind. It's not a feel-good read, and it's certainly not politically correct. But for those willing to wade through the muck, there are moments of genuine insight and emotional resonance. It's a glimpse into the messy, imperfect reality of a life in progress.
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Seek help with your narcissism.
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Hearing that from you is like Hitler telling me to practice tolerance. It's so comical I thought you were joking but of course you wouldn't make a joke like that so you're being serious so the irony of the situation is going above your head due to narcissism.
With that said, narcissism is a negative word for a normal human behavior that doesn't require 'help' just like church used to villify a man for valuing his own life over others because it didn't serve the charity state, similar statements from others attacking displays of ego are also motivated by self interest
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Yeah, I have zero idea what you're saying. I'm going to reiterate: seek treatment for your narcissism.
Using Google Gemini (a work tool) to analyze, at best, your weirdo life journal and, at worst, your sex spreadsheet is insane. This is the type of behavior that might be acceptable levels of narcissism if you were a really hot girl, but you're some freak male chink. You are obviously a combination of dangerous and freak pervert.
personally when i use the term narcissism i am by definition describing abnormal behavior
I'm going to use Google Gemini to analyze my .ts3/chats TeamSpeak logs to see if it can be published into a book.
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I'm pretty sure Google Gemeni would give the exact same result as Ironstove's if you gave it Refspi's (Actual schizophrenic) forum posts.
Can you imagine if I came onto the forum and, unprompted, made a post about how I keep a weird sex journal and I'm using it for context in my Google Gemini conversations -- I might publish it as a book!
Just the most insane, narcissistic, obviously a menace to society behavior. I got off the couch and went upstairs to make the initial response.
Something Elliot Rodger would've done for sure. Only difference is that he was actually cool and smart.
I'm using Google Gemini in a dialectical fashion to produce a new theory of Leftism for the Voter Thread -- ETA 2 weeks~
I can't imagine it's all that interesting either don't you want to be a quant or some shit? You have to remember these things are literally designed to affirm your priors and gas you up unless you supply alternative explicit instructions
That's not true they exist to demoralize white people.
They have it coming.
Google Gemini -- show me an image of the founding fathers -- two black men and an Asian woman.
We've had it too good for too long