I think a 10 year old can tell the difference between a burnout loser like you and a normal person.
You can probably tell from how you talk, your vocabulary of a middle school kid, how much you smoke, everything about you screams "loser".
I learned about life more from hearthstone than you did 10 years in the streets getting high.
Your insecurities about this are really obvious by how much that struck a nerve - you were crying about it just earlier after all.
We're still here for you, all you have to do is to accept yourself and stop chasing something that doesn't exist anymore.
Comes in teamspeak to tell me: "I took Xanax last night", and expects to not be publicly humiliated.
You will forever be a hopeless drug addict until you accept that you're just another loser spoiled nerd and embrace your real life.
He has his "friend" come over, and all they do is cry about highschool and drink, then his friend goes home to his wife and life while laughing at how much of a loser Toprak is.
I can't remember the last time Toprak talked about actually doing anything other than drugs and drinks, all he does is talk about things he used to do.
How come?
I know you're reading these still so I'll leave you with this for the night:
You don't have to be a loser forever. Stop trying to be one.
You can always start fresh, you just have to let go of the past.